2009 - amazing so far but a little sad

Yesterday I got my RSVP card for graduation in May. They waanted to know if I'm gonna walk or not. Personally, I don't care if I do ... HOWEVER... I'm going to walk....for my kids, for my mother and for my grandmother who will have the best seat in the house. I keep thinking about what it took for me to get to this point and honestly, I can't believe I actually made it. Never do I want a pity party but wow...after everything that happened this past year with my grandmother's death and everything surrounding it, this is honestly the last thing I would've thought would be happening...ME graduating.

It does make me sad, though, because the one thing I really wanted for my grandmother to see and be there for, she's not. Well she will be but you know what I mean. I already know I'm going to be an emotional basket case that day. Yeah, I'm proud of myself for making it through but I would give anything in this world to have her there physically so that I could see the look on her face. She stayed after me for years to go back to school and finally a few months before she died, I decided to. I bought my books for my first semester the same day I had to take her clothes to the funeral home. That morning that I walked into the bookstore, I stood there for a moment with the thoughts of "screw this" going through my head and I thought about turning around and just forgetting all about school but something made me stay there. It wouldn't let me leave and it hasn't let me give up this whole time.

Just reflecting and thinking on what 2009 has already given my family this year...it's amazing and sad all at the same time. I'm graduating, my brother, Jason, who NO ONE thought would ever have a kid...well he did...a little boy that is the spitting image of him (my grandmother would've been over the moon), my youngest brother, Josh, had another baby (a son) two weeks after Jason's son was born and my cousin, Shannon, got married last weekend. All of these amazing life changing events so close to each other. My grandmother would've been swimming in pride and excitement. So it's all a little bittersweet.

What I do know is that I am so thankful for everything I have left and everything that I had when my grandmother was alive. I am praising God for the amazing husband, mother and kids that I have. My mom and I were always close but she has become my best friend in so many ways and I would truly be lost without her. Same with my husband. I love that man. I really do. I could never find another man that fits me so perfectly. My boys, they are my angel and my miracle.

My friends that I have made this year. Wow, I don't even know what to say. They along with NKOTB (of course) are what picked my ass up off the floor last year and kept me going. So many times last year I wanted to crawl in a hole and never come out. I didn't want to smile or get out and have fun. I just wanted to cry and scream. Thank God for them. They added so much joy and laughter and sillyness to my life. I am a better person and stronger person because of each one of them. We all may have our different ways about doing things, saying things and perceiving things but when we all get together, it's like we are all just one big tardlike 12 year old and it's awesome. I can't wait to see what else 2009 has in store for us....


Speaking of which...bring on some Grown Man on St Patty's Day!!!

So after running around trying to find a certain shirt...I found it...and then I got it home, tried it on and yup, leave it to the boobs to make it look like a sprayed on piece of cloth. Ok, well not really but that's how it feels. I mean it fits...but I dunno. Don't know what to do lol I can't wait to get to Greenville and hopefully the guys will see our shirts. It's gonna be awesome. I'm actually pretty proud of myself for coming up with the shirt. Just crossing fingers it goes over well.

Everyone is getting ready for the crazy ass adventure that it is to come in about a week. I can't freaking wait. Wonder how many times I'm gonna keep saying that hmmm I don't want to post anymore information on here about the when and where's because there are sure to be other people roaming around "investigating" just like we do haha Silly huh? I think so but who cares. It's fun.

Damn I am random today. I'm all over the place. Sick of school and ready for it to be over with. I have a civil litigation test tonight. Oh joy! NOT. This class doesn't bother me but it's all about rules.

Anyhow...I need to finish working on my other sign. I've alrady got one that's finished and now I need to get the other one finished.

That's enough of my rambling for now. I'm even driving myself crazy.

No Snow For Me booooo

So here I am. At home with my boys who are out of school because the districts decided to close school today for all the snow we were supposedly gonna get. HAHAHA We got nothing here. So a day wasted I guess lol Not that I'm overly disappointed in not getting any snow. I like to look at it and then I'm done with it. I guess why I really like it is because it reminds me of the snow we would get in Colorado. I loved it there. It would snow all the way up until May sometimes and it was REAL snow... not just flurries that shut down an entire city.

Having said that...I'm ready for some warm weather. I am ready for St Patty's Day with the bishes and the Boston boys and I don't want to be standing outside the arena freezing my ass off...although, I have no problem doing that. Last time in Charlotte, it was seriously cold as hell that morning but we roughed it and had a good time doing so. I can't wait for this adventure to begin! I'm so beyond excited and ready. I'm ready to hang with the girls and see THE MAN...not that the other men are any less awesome to see but it's a Donnie thing.

Atleast I got my stupid paper done for my law office management class. Seriously...that class can stuff it. I HATE that class and that's an understatement. I've enjoyed all of my other classes but this one is a serious waste of time and money and I am putting forth no effort in it. I'm tired of it and the prissy teachers that sit there with a chip on their shoulders when in actuality they are the same thing I am - a freaking paralegal. No more, no less. They suck.

So anyhow... I'll just keep staring at my Donnie cell phone screen saver for the next couple weeks until it's time to tard out again and be grateful that this semester is almost over and graduation in 2 months away!